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(no subject) [Jun. 26th, 2005|10:40 pm]
Suzie
So here's the picture that I drew and colored of Lex and Liam. I can't believe I wasted my time coloring it. >>;

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Lex and Liam are (c) 2004-2005 GaiaOnline Interactive or something.

First here is a list of the things that are absolutely WRONG with it (starting with Liam and working around to Lex! ♥):
1. The bandana-thing. It's supposed to have a corner coming out on both sides, but I put one big corner on his right side. :(
2. Liam's hair. It's outlined between the two different colors because I was lazy. It looks awful. ;;
3. Liam's left arm (shoulder). I was trying to make it look like it was forward some. Instead, it looks lumpy and detatched.
4. The arms in general are really bad because I have no idea what muscles look like. You can tell that much, though, can't you?
5. Liam's hand. ... Hand. Argh.
6. THE TICKETS. I'd already drawn and started to color them and everything when I realized they aren't actually that big. They're the size of those prize tickets you normally get at arcades, which tear off. The image of the ticket even has a corner torn off! Rrrgh! If I'd taken the time to look this up, I may have drawn a chain of them.. (Also, I didn't bother drawing them on properly - I just distorted a pre-existing image of the tickets to fit the ones Liam was holding.)
7. Lex's hand is very plain and ugly just sitting there. :< And I think he may have cuffs or something on his wrists - like the card shark bands, which apparently go over the wrists. But the image of him doesn't show his wrists, so I can't be sure, and I couldn't find any more pictures of him at Saki's website (the artist for Gaia).
7. Lex's hair. And face. His hairline receeds more and his hair isn't so shaggy/long. It's actually kind of short. :/

Here are the things that I like about the picture:
1. Liam's face. ;__________;
2. The shape of Liam's hair, even if I botched the coloring.
3. The logo on Liam's shirt. LOOKS JUST LIKE THE REAL THING! Hee. *oddly proud*
4. Lex's shirt. :3
5. The idea behind it. ;; I wish somebody talented would draw Lex+Liam things.

The background is just the background of Gold Mountain Casino cropped and resized. XD; What, I got lazier. So sue me.
As always, I can't CG worth a damn. This is no news to me. I can hardly color when it comes to crayons. I'm also not the greatest artist in teh warld evar. (yet) So don't blame me if you get blinded by the crappiness of it. :( You'll see, one day.. I'll be GREAT~~ mwaha. You'll see. You'll see.
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*ahem* [May. 27th, 2005|10:28 pm]
Suzie
[Mood |sleepysleepy]

My conscience keeps bugging me. There are certain things that I feel should be said to certain people, and I haven't said them because.. well, I don't know why. Because I haven't. But I have a few apologies and explanations for folks, and I just can't have a clear conscience until I get these things out. Whether or not these people end up reading this is up to them; but it's out in the open for them, any time.


To Jason V.: I'm sorry for always being such a bitch to you. It's childish of me to be mean to you just because I dislike you. I do dislike you, but that's no reason for me to wish you'd just leave me the hell alone and get out of my life forever. :D
^-- see. The happy face means I was being nice. :)

To Wala: Thank you for not picking up your phone when I called you (several times) back in January. Whether it was coincidental or on purpose, I think it's a good thing that I didn't speak to you. You're a great guy and I wish we could continue to be friends, but I somehow get the feeling from you that you'll never really be able to be friends with me again. Maybe I'm wrong - but I guess it's hard to look at someone you break up with as a regular person again.

To Jeannie: I'm sorry that I sort of ended up copying your style, and tried to copy your personality, when I first got you as an LJ friend; in my defense, I didn't even realize I was doing it. In a time when I was struggling to find my own identity, even on LJ, I guess I ended up latching on to the most solid one, which was yours. You're an amazing girl and I'm sorry if it ever felt like I was stealing your identity - I remember you making a post to that effect, but if you were talking about me or about someone else, I don't know. I just wanted to say that looking back, I can see it now - and I'm sorry.

To Mike B.: I.. really don't like you that much, and I feel bad for saying that but it's the truth. We just don't mesh right. It's not that we disagree on things; we just agree for TOTALLY different reasons, and to me it's a little unsettling. You don't understand anything I say and everything you say makes me think you're an idiot. I really don't know why we're still LJ friends, so I'm going to take you off my list. I just don't like you.

To Veronica: I think you're insane and I know that you didn't have the greatest past, but god fucking damn. Chin up and get over it - that's my official advice. Take it or leave it, but don't blow up in my face again :D. Also, I'm still waiting for my glasses.

To Steven W.: I have to admit, your senior year I thought you had a crush on me and I was a little weirded out (because I'm bad at awkward situations like unreturned affections). I'm a little embarrassed about thinking that at the time because it means that I'm arrogant and self-centered. :D But it's been well over a year since that, so please don't hold it against me.

To Toren: I'm sorry that I was very awkward when you said what you did last time we talked, but really, I don't like you all that much. We don't talk anymore so we're not close - and really, I don't want to be. I'm sorry if that makes me a bitch, but I'm only trying to tell the truth here. And to be told that you were loved by somebody who has only ever known you online, and didn't really know you all that well (except for your boob size), is a little strange.

To Tom: I'm sorry that I'm really not the girl that I was those years ago, and I'm sorry that you expected me to be. I have a life that expands beyond IRC and the Lab now, and I have for awhile, and any ties that I made with most of the people from Scifi have either been maintained over the years or mostly dissintegrated. So don't take it personally. :/



Anybody else who feels like I should have something to say to them, please let me know. If we have any loose ends, I'll tie them up or at least torch the remaining threads. :)
But pretty much, if you're not on the list - and I guess it's pretty short, all in all - I've either completely forgotten that we have issues with each other, or I don't think that we HAVE any issues. Also, please keep in mind that what I've said here are my beliefs and my feelings, and not open for dispute. You can try to argue, but the fact remains that I feel this way and that's probably not going to change.

Public entry so that those not on my list can see it. Please don't comment anonymously - it's just harrassing. If you have something to say, say it yourself. :)
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(no subject) [May. 23rd, 2005|12:47 am]
Suzie
[Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Music |Phil Collins - You'll be in my heart]

I feel like an idiot for asking this, but WHY is my browser doing this? D: It randomly decides that when I try to save an image to my computer, it will save it as a bitmap and only bitmap. I just had to crop the white space out of the image of my avatar. >>;

I meant to update my LJ that I changed my avatar on Gaia again. :D She has a new hairstyle, and somebody fondled it the other day. XD;




She reminds me of one of those snobby japanese schoolgirls you see pictured in certain mangas. :D The kind that goes to tanning salons and gets her hair dyed and is really mean to all the unpopular girls. XD
I'm not really like that. I'm one of the unpopular girls. :< *sob*




Ahem.

Here's a list of DVDs and Manga that I have. :D

Bolded DVDs are American films.
Italics mean I KNOW I'm taking this with me to NJ - Justine, please let me know if I should add/subtract anything!
The first section of DVDs is my personal collection.
The second section of DVDs is the Studio Ghibli DVDs that I own. :D
The third section is the box sets that I have.
The fourth section is the "House" DVDs, meaning my mom probably bought them, but they're still available to me for screencapping purposes. :x


... I just got really self-conscious of my grammar. >< Using "is" looks really awkward to me, but I can't properly explain it. What section decides whether I use "is" or "are"?

The first section of DVDs is ________.
Section is, but DVDs are.
"section of DVDs" is singular though, so I'd use "is," wouldn't I?
...

I guess I'm looking at it too closely. :D I could probably word it differently and get something better-sounding, but I'm too lazy. :D Come to think, something like "contains" would be better than "is," but.. :x Oh well.




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I just accidentally discovered the :I face. :D

Here are some things I'm looking for, for the record:

Velvet Goldmine (DVD)
Hedwig and the Angry Inch (DVD)
Tank Girl (DVD)
Chance Pop Session vol. 3+ (DVD)
SuperGALS! vol. 2+ (DVD)
Mars vol. 8+ (Manga)
Paradise Kiss 5 (Manga)

Demon Diary vol. 7, 2, 3, & 4

So if anybody's got those and HAPPENS to want to trade/donate.. XD

Ah, other than that, I did absotively nothing today. Yay. :D
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(no subject) [May. 21st, 2005|12:28 am]
Suzie
[Mood |accomplishedaccomplished]

I made a Cat Soup colorbar. Why? Because I just saw the movie. And. It's. AWESOME. XD

Seriously, anybody who likes weird things needs to see this short. It's adorable, 34 minutes of absolute wonderful. :D


Cat Soup is slightly demented love ♥




.. hope it turned out okay. :D

That's all I wanted to share. :D Much love~. Let me know if you're going to use it. :D
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:D [Apr. 6th, 2005|07:46 pm]
Suzie
[Mood |satisfied:)]
[Music |Fenix TX - All my Fault]

I don't know why, but I just felt really liberated today. Like I was a free woman. I know it sounds stupid, but for the first time in a long time I realized that.. I don't have to change for anyone, because nobody wants me to change for them. I'm not sure what made me realize it. But I was in the snack line at break and I had a dollar so I thought, "Why don't I get some pretzels?" Pretzels are one of my favorite snack foods, but I still haven't quite broken out of the habit of NOT eating them.

While I was dating Jason (oh, I shudder to think there was a time!) there were a lot of things I couldn't do, or couldn't eat, or couldn't READ, because he didn't like them. Among the things I couldn't eat were pretzels - those regular, crunchy and salted pretzels that you get in the bag. I loved those, but I gave them up for two years for him because he couldn't stand them. But did he give up smelly vinegar chips for me? No. :( Jerk.

Well, regardless, it was my choice to give the pretzels up. Same as it was my choice to give up peanut butter, or "worrying about how I looked"(does anyone remember how horribly messy/uncombed my hair always was Freshman and Sophomore year? Yeah. Still trying to break THAT habit as well). So it isn't really his fault. Not blaming him.

But the thought crossed my mind that I used to not eat pretzels solely because somebody else didn't like them. And it sort of touched me somehow, deep down, and I just felt really free all of a sudden. I felt like I didn't have to do anything for anyone else ever again, and I was free to become the person who I want to be. For me alone.

Because.. I am still growing up. I'm still a child, and I know that even if Mr. Perfect came along, I wouldn't be ready for him. Well, maybe if he just wanted a quick fling and some hawt smex, that'd be okay :D, but I'm completely unprepared for any kind of dedicated relationship - I have my own life to figure out first. I need to at least get through my 2 years of college before I bother with all of that.

I know that me saying all of this isn't going to stop me from falling in love with somebody again. I'm one of those people that falls in love a little too easily. :D; I just hope that maybe I can look back on this later on to help me remind myself what my real priority is: me.

In that spirit, I'm going to make this entry public in case I forget my password or something. XD;
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(no subject) [Mar. 27th, 2005|04:12 am]
Suzie
Dear Netscape,

Please stop disconnecting me right after I log on and then reconnecting me at 4.8k/s. I'd really, really like to stay online FOR LONGER THAN TEN SECONDS with maximum speeds JUST A LITTLE BIT HIGHER THAN 4K/S AND IT WOULD BE REALLY NICE IF I COULD GET SOME EASTER EGGS ON GAIA BECAUSE SO FAR I'VE BEEN AT IT FOR AN HOUR, SINCE THE EVENT STARTED, AND YOU'VE LET ME STAY ONLINE LONG ENOUGH TO GET A SINGLE FUCKING YELLOW EGG. I've been looking forward to this event for WEEKS and I get ONE. FUCKING. EGG?!!?!?!!?!!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!? *MURDERS NETSCAPE!*

It's not like it's a peak hour or anything, dears.

kthxwvu,

empy

p.s. happy easter!
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(no subject) [Mar. 13th, 2005|04:50 am]
Suzie
I'm so fucking lame.
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(no subject) [Feb. 12th, 2005|10:41 pm]
Suzie
Dear Rinoa,

I hate you. Please die.

Love, empy
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(no subject) [Nov. 14th, 2004|03:33 pm]
Suzie
[Mood |accomplishedaccomplished]

I changed my AIM screenname.

zombie hammi

Zombie, zombie plushie, and zombie pie were all taken.
So add me and IM me. I really need deadaim so I can log onto both accounts at the same time. I could put up an away message on starrynite2005 saying my new sceenname.

Anyway, I won't come to you, so you come to me so I can add you. :) For now I'll be on starrynite2005. IM me on either account and I'll add you on the new one. :D
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(no subject) [Oct. 30th, 2004|09:44 pm]
Suzie
[Mood |cheerfulcheerful]
[Music |DDR - End of Century]



: I'm collecting those vial thingies. They're going to be completely useless, yaaaay. :D Or.. or turn us all into zombies. o____o;; So if you're on Gaia, give a vial to Secret Agent Empy por favor! :DDD

Is neopets doing anything special for Halloween? I'll have to check it out later. :3
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